I am actually disturbed today. Yes really, and since I have been pouring my heart out with you all, I think you guys will help me get my head clear this time too.
Running a full time website can be stressful, and blogging is a full job. I have never thought of my self only as a blogger because to be honest I am not. I am a creative being, with a touch of colors, ideas and command on words. My love for fashion and connecting with world on a broader horizon made me create this platform, which by the way I carved from scratch by myself. (this website, was initially done by me, I bought the theme and uploaded it by watching guides on Youtube 😀 haha that’s true. Later on it was revamped by my friend to make it more user friendly.) I write because I enjoy words. Be it a fashionable word or a sad stanza or an inspirational statement. I truly rejoice what I write.
Coming from a magazine background, and working in retail gave me an insight to the world we are striving in – our industry. And trust me I have enjoyed every bit of it, learnt so much.
This journey has not been easy but it had been fulfilling until today. I have never fallen a prey of freebies, honestly that has never been my motto but if someone calls me in for a review, event, conference, fashion show or send me
something – I purely take it as a their token of respect. I surely do.
But why I am telling you all this today, because lately, I have been feeling drained and exhausted by this stigmatized number game. Why is quantity preferred over quality? I have been putting so much effort in my writings, Instagram feed, Photoshop-ing to create imagery and thinking about how to be more meaningful, and still unnoticed. Yes it has been hitting me bad. It is not about the free stuff, it has never been; for me it’s all about getting noticed... because that’s what I want to be, a platform where people can learn not just another website. But I love my fans and followers who has supported me and loved me for who I am. ❤💕🙏🏻 your likes and comments are my strength.
I write, and my only motive is to create a difference. When all the young-lings of my family and my followers send me messages that I am their inspiration or I am their favorite – I feel accomplished. But then I am as human as others. To create good content, I need support from brands and my PR friends too right? I created this blog to write my heart out without any restriction, I wanted to share my utmost emotion. If I don’t like anything I do not write about them, that’s who I am, because I can’t say something is bad, that’s just too difficult for me. 🙈
But I want to say it out loud, and actually I want to get it out, when you ignore me I notice that. When you call me for your reason, I notice that too. When you give me utter respect – trust me I love you more than you can imagine.
So for you, who am I – am I worthy your time or am I just another email address? Do you consider me as an avid writer or just another URL?
May be my Instagram feed is not as per your standards but my writings are and trust me I happy this way.
Love and peace ✌️
Hurt but an unstoppable creative being.